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Sorry I guess it's my hormones acting up again cause my monthly friend just visited me and yeah I'm feeling shitty permanently now.

Now I'm just frustrated. Angry at myself because it was my choice. This path that I chose led me to the misery I'm feeling now. Angry because I let this happen to me and wallow in self pity. The primary thing I'm unhappy about is about school but there are a million on things I hate right now. Like this fannoying stomach.. Sort-of-cramp feeling that is bothering me. Or that I just can't figure out what to eat. Swear I'm a ticking time bomb rn.

But anyway... Yeah I regret choosing the school I'm in right now. I'm always wonder if I had gone to AC, NAFA or Laselle maybe I would be happier. It's not just about the small fish in big tank shit. It's so much more.

But right now, all I want to do is Art. Recently many things required me to to make use of my artistic talent and much more people are reminding me how I'm good in it or how I should have taken up Art. But sometimes maybe it's just that I'm sick and tired of the A lvl syllabus.

Gonna stop this negativity early in the morning right here. Gonna start being positive again okay I'm gonna list down things I'm grateful for. Tata. (Lol that was a lame bye haha BYE)