Suffocating

This has to be the most hectic period of my life. Everything is going haywire, nothing is going well. Everyone is pressing me. Everyone is expecting the best out of me. But with so much on my plate right at this very moment, how can I possibly invest my 100% on everyone and everything I do? You must know I'm a horrible person. I can't excel because I am never good enough or meant to be. I'll always be the one with mediocre or with worse performance. I'll always be the one screwing up. I'll always be the one at fault. Can't complain if people start to get unhappy with me due to my lack of efficiency. Because I deserve it.

Just listed out all of my problems to my bff. I realized quitting school would solve 90% of them. And dying, 100%.