I don't know why but I can't stop crying tonight. Maybe that sparked off everything, and the buildup of sadness decided to spill out in the form of teardrops. And at intervals. Because whenever I stop crying, 5min later my tear ducts would be "OH JK here comes round (n+1)". I'm feeling so horrible every night lately. Would you believe me if I told you I feel like dying everyday, and I'm not even kidding. I'm not saying this to attract attention because nobody really knows this. And I doubt anybody reads my blog so I'm just gonna vent it all here. I know it's unhealthy to be feeling this way. Sometimes I wonder if I'm suffering from (mild) depression. I feel so useless as a human being all the time. What's the point of living, really? Nobody gives a shit about me too. If I'd died it wouldn't make any difference. Or maybe my GP tutor would be a little sad since he would have to appoint a whole new rep + the fact that a part of the GP fund is with me.
Fuck life.
I don't even have mood to celebrate my 18th birthday. Which is coming in... 10 days. I don't care anymore. I used to be excited till you sent my hopes crashing down.
K I'm not celebrating. There's no point.
chanced upon your blog and........DONT FEEL THAT WAY! (sigh tho i used to have those negative thoughts for a period of time, i nearly killed myself.......in those negative thoughts) FOCUS ON THE GOOD THINGS. 18 years old can go get driving license already yknwww. But hor i think crying is good. Cox sometimes when i get home from work or on Sunday night i will cry to myself cox i dont want to work. LOL. Stay brave and focus on the good stuffs. As for the bad ones, FUCK IT!!!!
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